So much has changed for me in the last year and a half. A real roller coaster ride. 2014 and 2015 will be years to remember my entire life. Good and bad. We're three quarters of the way through 2015 and I find myself sitting here reflecting on how I got to this point. How did I make it to this point in the year with everything that has happened to try and push me down. "Wait! What are you talking about? You're usually a pretty happy guy."
Yes, I'm usually a pretty happy camper. (ugh, I hate that word now...) But the past year has seen me go through one of the lowest points in my life. But as I sit here thinking on it, that time felt so far off and how everything has changed so much since then. Perhaps we should start at the beginning. Genesis 1:1 "In the beginning God created the heavens and the earth."
Ok, maybe not that far...
Early last year my family finally sold the house we had been living in for many years to move to a new property where we were then going to build a new home. Four of us and three indoor cats were now living in a tow-behind camper as the new house was built. It wasn't all that bad at first. There was no elbow room but we adjusted accordingly. I now had plenty of free time to draw but no Internet. Thank goodness for free wifi at fast food restaurants!
This was a period where I was creating a lot of fun stuff and sharing it here on DeviantArt.
Then August 13th, 2014 happened. Life Lessons
With the loss of my first computer, I began the slow decent into what I can only describe as a depression. Movie projects and art projects alike were all lost. And a week before I began my first semester in college. All enthusiasm for drawing was lost. This is where I am the most grateful for all my watchers. Reading the comments you have left has often lifted my spirit on some rather dreary days.
Winter took a heavy toll on not just myself, but my whole family as well. I had a Christmas I would be ok with forgetting. I was eager to move on to the next year. I wanted to leave 2014 behind me as soon as humanly possible. (Which, by the way, is at a rate of approximately 365 days per year. Just so you know.) 2015 is the year of change. But boy, did it start off like crap!
As winter turned into spring, my mood continued to degrade. I couldn't stand to be around people anymore. Not even my own family. I was really beginning to hate living in that camper. But there was no where else I could go. I used to say that 'I have tons of patience but not a lot of tolerance.'
Well, I was now running short on patience. "Wow, this is not at all fun to read. Where's the silver lining? There has to be some good here. When are we getting to the good?"
That's what I wanted to know as well.
The end of June is where everything changed once again. The new house was now far enough along to move into! Praise God! The dark days were now behind me! A real bed! A real shower! And as of last week, CAKE!!! (A year and a half without homemade cake!) The frown has been turned upside down. "I think we've been able to tell."
It has only been a few months now, but those long dark months now seem so far away. I sit here and am just amazed at how much I've changed just in attitude. I've gone from uncaring and upset all the time to a happy camper again. (ugh, there's that word again.) The desire and joy for drawing has returned in full force. And am so happy and thankful for a place, a community, where I can share my art.
2015 still has a few months left in it. If you had asked me four months ago about this year, I would have told you I want to just skip it and try out 2016. But now I'm excited for the rest of this year! I say, 'Bring it!'
I'm laughing again. I'm drawing again. I'm not getting enough sleep but thats my own darned fault! And now I want to share my happiness through my art. "So, what are you getting at."
That's just it, I don't really know. I don't know what I should do right now other than draw what I want and share it here with all you awesome people. ('cause,you know, you are awesome!!! That ain't no lie.) I'm still trying to figure out how I can be more interactive with all of you. To get started, I'm trying to respond to more comments than I have in the past. All I now is, I want to continue to show how much I appreciate you guys and that I want to be more than just someone who posts art but doesn't take enough time to really engage with their audience.
So if you've made it this far through the wall of text, congratulations! (I'm sorry but hey, it's sorta what a journal is for. Words.) I might not know for sure what to really do with regards to engaging you all more actively and often. Maybe that can be one of our first challenges. What ideas might you have? What could I do? How can we make this fun? Because, if it isn't fun, why do it?
2015, the year of change. From bad to AMAZING. That's what we will make of this year. I know that together, we can have some amazing times before the New Year rolls around. Let's send 2015 out with a Time Lord sack full of great times and welcome in 2016 with eager anticipation for even more amazing times!
Come on! Let's do this!!!
Gosh, I just got really pumped writing that last paragraph... I need to go draw something.